i'm turning/ i guess i just turned 28. this whole year, being 27, i've subconsciously lived for alexis. did more. added more. toasted more. gave more. smiled more. was honest more. I was entering my 28th year. approaching this 28 number. a number alexis never met and a number i now hold. i think the lesson here is that every year, every day i will hold her closer but even more so, a lesson for so many is that we need to give, do more, specifically, do more good. good for yourself. good for others. good for those we live in memory of. just good. it's much easier than feeling bad (even though you need to feel bad to understand/ appreciate good). so even though i burst into tears at the strike of midnight (i've never cried on a birthday before), i am happy that it was lex's gorgeous face that popped into my head as I rung in my bday. happy bday to me. i'm going to live the shit out of 28.