how does this make any sense. it has to make sense. it has to. if it doesn’t make sense than what is the point of living. what is the point of humanity and living.
in no conceivable way does it make sense that we lost lex. in no way, shape or form.
and how can we even find a way to find comfort in this. how can we begin to think about ways to help us move through this--help us get past this devastation. this tragedy. this Shakespearean heartbreaking story. the story of a beautiful woman who touched the lives of thousands...the story of this beautiful woman who stands among one of the most successful individuals i know...the story of someone who loved life--who tasted life with every bite, to its fullest.
Death is life’s reality check for the living--it just doesn't make sense that you had to be the one to go.
i know we prayed, we all prayed and hoped that this wouldn’t happen. So, to ensure we don’t take Alexis’ death in vain, we must hold on to this and learn--because, something needs to make sense otherwise I don’t know how we can go on.
Lex was diagnosed, September 28th with Leukemia. She was in her 28th year when she won her fight against cancer (although defeated by her liver complications). We found an apartment building in Tel Aviv, number 28, and the number of the actual apartment we stayed in was 28. Ricky and I read psalm number 28 at the kotel, 28 times. Alexis passed away, December 28th, at 10pm eastern standard time, (December 29th Israel time). 28. I remember standing in front of the door to the Tel Aviv apartment with Debbie, staring at that number, and she said, “i don’t know what this 28 is suppose to mean--if it’s something good or if its something bad.”
28 in gamara, represents kaf and chet. Together, they mean strength. From strength to strength. From strength to strength. From strength to strength Alexis came. and from strength to strength she went. So if nothing else can comfort us, if nothing else makes sense, if nothing else can guide us, than at least, lets go from strength to strength the way lex did. Let the power and outpouring of her strength seep into us. Let her strength inspire our own strength and our ability to be strong. Let’s be more aware of our own strength--and know, that when we are being the strongest we could ever possibly be, know that Alexis has something to do with it. Alexis’ strength will forever be part of our emotional muscle and she'd want us flexing it.
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